Category / Deep thoughts and blonde moments
The cat’s outta the bag
So I’ve had this little blog for several years now. Actually, I’ve had this one for two, and had another one for 2-3 years before that. What can I say, I’m a writer… an expressive personality, and a bit gabby. Plus I really enjoy going back and reading about things from the past. Just yesterday I found a stack of notes for the book that has been swimming around in my head for about two years now, and it was so fun to read some of my ideas which I had long forgotten. So this is why I write things down. Why I share those things with you… well that I don’t really know.
Grief
Death is a funny thing. You may have no clue it’s coming, and then BAM, it hits you. In my grandmother’s case, we knew for months, and the dying process seemed to crawl by. And then one day you wake up and it’s over.
You can call me Orange Face
It’s that time of the year. My beautiful summer tan has begun to fade. I’m no longer spending long afternoons by the pool or sunning myself at the lake, and I’m quickly turning white. White.
Because I’m having a bad day
Today really stunk. Like, really stunk. I have had car problems almost constantly this summer.
- Car broke down in the fast lane of I-35 south of Temple = $450.
- Flat tire = $300 for two new tires.
- Car overheated = $200 for a new thermostat.
- Then car overheated again.
- Then overheated again.
- I have an amazing God who has been speaking to me like crazy through his scripture and through some other folks around me. I am so thankful for spans of time where I can feel his presence, where his Word pierces straight to my heart. Where my prayer time is sweet. In every Christian walk there are times of plenty and times of want, and I am thankful to be enjoying a time of plenty.
- Along the same line, I am thankful that God seems to be answering a prayer that I prayed fervently over the past year (no, I don’t have a boyfriend, I know you’re thinking it!). I have prayed that God will change my heart and my desires about one particular area of my life, and am watching an inexplicable change that can only be of Him. I can only pray that he continues to work.
- I have the sweetest dad in the whole wide world, who dropped everything today to go car shopping with his poor, stressed out daughter who is completely clueless about cars. I am also thankful that he lent me his truck to drive while Snowflake is taking her extended vacation to the mechanic.
- Even though my car has given me nothing but fits this summer, I am thankful that I was never once stranded, never had car problems at night, and only once had a problem on a weekend. Every time, I was able to get it to a mechanic to get the problem taken care of. This last time, I wasn’t able to make it to a mechanic (it happened on a Sunday) but I was able to make it safely home.
- I am blessed with some fantastic friends, and in particular some wonderful Christian girlfriends who are such an encouragement to me. Socially, they’re super fun. Spiritually, they challenge and encourage me in ways they’ll never realize meant so much to me.
- I have had the best summer ever. Not only did I kick it off with a fabulous European cruise and then a family wedding, but I have spent the past three weekends hanging out at the lake, spent the weekend before that riding down a river on an inner tube, enjoyed countless dinners out, dinners in, watched movies, and played as much as was humanly possible. I wish I could relive this summer a hundred times. It was pure bliss.
- Tomorrow I begin my VERY LAST DAY of graduate school! In 117 days, I’ll be walking across the stage at my graduation ceremony, sporting that dorky cap and gown and then celebrating in grand fashion with the party of the century. I can almost taste the freedom. And the free time.
- I am getting free tuition again this fall, and this time I don’t have to work as a grad assistant to get it! I just get the free tuition, no strings attached. You have no idea the relief I felt when I got the good news!
- I have a job that I love and I work for a boss that I respect.
Such a sap
I’ve become such a sap… today I was sitting at my desk at work, minding my own business, when someone sent me a silly forward about a soldier giving a little girl a hug in an airport… and it sent me right over the edge, probably because I have friends over there. I cried right there at work! Sometimes I’m so thankful that I have an office that offers me privacy for silly days like today.
Cleansed
A wedding and another ugly cry
I was so good this weekend… I didn’t cry a single time during my sister’s wedding. I managed to keep it together the entire weekend without losing it a single time–I was so proud of myself.
Surreptitiously
I titled my blog Surreptitiously because until today I didn’t know what that word meant. But thanks to my good friends at dictionary.com, I now know that it means secretive. It was one of my many discoveries today as I read 16 academic journal articles about blogging ethics for a research paper.
Breathe
The price we pay for beauty…